I'm thinking that the Computer Lounge actually has pretty interesting music when I'm in here. I like most of it that's on at the beginning of my stay. Maybe the shift changes right in the middle. I went to the Parking & Transportation office today and after all the time I spent printing out my goddamned schedule so that I'm eligible for the Metrolink passes, they don't have any record of me bringing it in. Now I have to bring in another copy. I guess I'll bring it in when I go in to order my passes for next month. Commuting is such a bitch. I wouldn't mind living anywhere between Oceanside and Fullerton...Even North of Fullerton would be ok. I don't mind riding the train. It's rather relaxing but I can't stand that I need car-train-bus to get to school and bus-train-car to get home. Why is everywhere so expensive? If anyone lives near the Metrolink Station in Oceanside, San Clemente, San Juan Capistrano, Laguna Niguel/Mission Viejo, Irvine, Tustin, Santa Ana, Orange, Anaheim, Fullerton, Buena Park, Norwalk/Santa Fe Springs, Commerce, Anaheim Canyon, or any of the Corona's and needs a roommate, I'm available! I even thought about pledging to a Sorority just so I can live in a Sorority house up here. I don't know how well we'd mesh though. I should start an Anti-Sorority and get a house. Only guys and the occasional cool chick will be allowed membership. So I've seen all 3 of the girls that I talked to at Orientation and they are all surprised that I still live in San Diego. One thing that ticks me off about the computers here is the fact that they have no clock in the toolbar. I need to know what time it is. How are people supposed to get to class on time when they're chilling in the computer lab? I guess there's a clock near the door, but that's not good enough for me. I'd better get going though so, see ya!

I'm back in the Mainframe. I'm so tired. This is going to be a long day. At least I've been to all of my classes at least once now. I know what they're all going to be like and I'm not too worried. I spent like $450 on books last week. Sucks for my parents. I'm very sleepy. I tried to sleep on the train this morning but that didn't work out too well. It's not very comfortable and I know that I snore so it was more like resting my eyes than sleeping. Although this business man slipped in next to me I don't know when and the only reason I ever found out that he was there was because my elbow bumped his. So I guess I must have been a little asleep. Heehee. I don't really know what else to talk about.  I went to a party the other night and I was like speed drinking because we weren't going to stay very long but I wanted to get drunk. I hate beer and I had 2. I also had 2 skrewdrivers (they were weak thought) and a Green Apple Smirnoff Twisted. I was a little drunk when TeLina dropped me off at Darius' place. We had fun...I think...I totally don't even remember falling asleep I just know it happened. It kinda sucked though cause the poor guy had to wake up early just to drive me back home. He's such a sweetheart! Talking about all this alcohol just made me think about my birthday...
I'LL BE 21 IN JUST ONE WEEK!!!!!
Yeah, I'm just a little excited. I'm going to be very busy. Everyone wants me to hang out with them so I'm just gonna stretch this birthday thingy for as long as I can. I'm glad everyone is reading my "First Time" entry. It was fun to write. People have told me what the experience was like for them and I just wanted people to see an honest gut reaction to all that was going on during mine. I wish I could have been dictating the thoughts right in the office but that would have been a little weird. I guess they have Karaoke from 12-1 on Mondays in the Pub. I hope it isn't 21+. I only have a week left. I'm so excited! So what are you getting me?

I'm posting this blog straight from the Mainframe Computer Lounge at Cal State Fullerton! It's my first day here. So far I've only had one class that got out hella early and is cancelled on Wednesday. I was going to crash a class but I couldn't find one I knew for sure I needed in this time frame. Plus do I really wanna have 5 classes back to back on Wednesdays? I do not like this keyboard set up. It makes my wrists hurt. Course I could just be whining. I think we're listening to Missy or something. This wouldn't be the music of my choice. I think this is the lab you go to if you want to do fun things as opposed to the ones in the library. I'm in a pretty good mood cause I thought that I was going to be at school all day till 5:30 but I actually get out at 3:45 which is pretty cool. I'm planning on taking the 4:03 train home today just cause we'll probably get out early. My dad takes me to the train station in the morning on his way to work and he's going to be picking me up too. I bet he's going to be wishing that I lived up here before the semester ends cause he gets to work hella early now and has to stay way late just to pick me up. I think maybe I should drive to the train station. I can hardly type. This sucks. What else am I going to do on my break? I'm trying to call Darius right now cause I missed a call from him. He was trying to call TeLina but he was missing a digit. That was pretty funny. Oh man, can there be any more preachy paper pushing people at my school? 9 out of 10 groups out there with tents are religious in nature. Oh yeah, and the 10th are Sorority Girls. So there I am, running by the tents trying to avoid making eye contact. I politely but abruptly say no thank you to each and every one of them. There is a Jamaican/Reggae version of Melt With You on right now. It's a little strange. I guess on My Space you can find out things that are happening with CSUF students. I can make friends! Nah, I don't care that much. I almost went to Sonic Burger today, but we have a Carl's Jr on campus so I went there instead. I wish I knew how to type better. It would make this a lot better. I'm really tired. Maybe I should take a nap. I don't really think people would appreciate me snoring though. I think that might be what has kept me from falling asleep in class before. This is a long and boring post. Maybe I can go find some surveys to do. I need to find something to do here. Ooo Pogo games! I wonder if they work here. I guess I'll find out.

Oh yeah, 2 weeks till my birthday!

Yesterday I went for my first gynecological visit. Oh boy was it a fun experience. First off, I had to fill out a crapload of paperwork. Then I sat around in the waiting room “waiting” for my name to be called. I headed off into the back to answer some questions about why exactly I was there. Which at the time I could hardly remember due to the fact that my heart was pounding so hard and my hands were sweating and I really had to go to the bathroom. The nurse lets me use the bathroom and then takes me to the exam room where the only thing she tells me is to get completely naked and the fashionable outfit that I will be wearing opens to the front. She leaves and I get undressed. I put the top on letting it be open to the front but then there’s still another piece. I unfold it but it’s just a piece of paper…A very large piece of paper but still? What the hell was I supposed to be using this for? I wrap it around me like a skirt open in the front and I’m like, “What the hell? This cannot possible be right. I sit down on the exam table and put the sheet over my lap. I think to myself, “This can’t be right either.” So I stand up and lay it on top of the already covered table thinking that maybe it’s because girls are oozy during this procedure. Then I hop back up on the table and just sit there cross-legged noticing that it is actually so cold in this room that my legs are no longer white but had rather a purplish tint to them now. This is when I put my socks back on. I take a look around the room. Nothing too interesting. On the ceiling there is a poster that is some crap like 101 Things to be Thankful For or some shit. I started reading it but then I realized that I shouldn’t be exhausting my only reading material before the exam even begins. Finally the nurse practitioner comes in and says, “Marie, I was wondering if you wouldn’t mind having another nurse be in the room watching the exam?” I was like, the more the merrier, why don’t we get a film crew in here too? But what came out of my mouth was, “Sure, it’s my first time so it’ll be a learning experience for everyone.” The doctor comes over and grabs another big paper sheet and lays it on my lap. “We want to give you some sort of privacy.” I’m cursing myself for not sticking to that idea and looking stupid in front of the new nurse. Whatever. Like that is the most embarrassing thing I was going to go through in that room. I also realized that these stirrups that everyone knows about are not as high as I thought they were going to be. The doc asks if she can do a breast exam on me. I say yes. Somehow I thought it was going to hurt or at least be a little tender but no. I guess your boobs can take quite a bit of smooshing around without crying out in pain. (I’m not looking forward to a mammogram) Course if you actually have boobs unlike me it probably hurts more. It’s weird talking to someone while they fondle you. Or actually what I guess is even more weird than that, is having someone talk to another person while they are groping you. After the tit squeezing ended, the nurse moved down south. She positions a spotlight down there so she can see it all. The table actually rises up so she doesn’t have to be all hunched over diving into your vagina. She says something scary like, “This speculum isn’t working correctly.” I’m like great; she’s going to have to use the Jaws of Life to open me up. She shows it to me, I suppose the working one, and it looks like a torture device. That calms me right down. I always hear horror stories about how cold the duck thingy really is, but I actually couldn’t tell you if it was cold or hot or really anything else about it other than the fact that I was opened up real wide and the part that hurt was where you could feel the edges on the inside. I just bit on one of my fingers and stared up at that stupid poster on the ceiling reading the same line over and over again because I couldn’t really focus. I can feel her taking the sample. Yuck. She’s talking to the other nurse about the procedure. I’m trying not to think about it. She says, “Ok, the speculum is coming out.” I’m preparing for the withdrawal and the stupid thing feel like it was in Mary Poppin’s bottomless bag. This thing just kept coming out. Damn how far in was this thing? Finally it’s out and I’m beginning to relax and then the lady says, “Now I’m going to do the internal exam.” Wait, let me think. WHAT THE HELL WAS THE OTHER PART OF THE EXAM IF IT WASN’T INTERNAL? IT SURE FELT INTERNAL TO ME. I’VE NEVER FELT SO GADDAMNED INTERNAL IN MY WHOLE LIFE! So now that I’m over the shock she tells me that some cold gel is coming and that she’s going to touch my ovaries and shit. She jams her fingers in so far I can’t even believe it. I did not know that someone could reach your ovaries let alone would want to try. She pushing down on my pelvic area I guess trying to shorten the distance she has to go to reach them. I was thinking; this better be the least sexy thing I ever do with someone’s fingers. If sex were like this I would become a nun. She says everything feels fine and she tells me that there are some tissues next to me that I can use to clean myself up after she leaves. Gee thanks lady is what I think, but I say, “Thank you very much.” She leaves and I make an unsuccessful attempt to clean up and then I put my clothes back on. I walk out into the hallway thinking I’ll never have to see that dreaded woman again…And there she is; her and her friend just standing there waiting for me. I thought they were going to tell me that they had made a mistake and the exam wasn’t over yet. They had forgotten the horribly bad and painful part and needed me to get back on the table. It was nothing like that of course, but you know, you have to feel like that when you’ve just been violated. They just wanted to talk about the morning after pill which is actually the “as soon as you can” pill. I got some blood drawn so that I can be tested for everything even though I know I don’t have anything. I just figured why I’m there, why not? Oh yeah, and girls, as much as I’m complaining it wasn’t that horrible. I’m doing fine today and isn’t it better knowing that everything is in proper working order down there? I hope that I didn’t gross anyone out; I just wanted to tell people how I was feeling during this important event in my life. It’s only your first time once.

21 DAYS TILL I'M 21!!!!!!!!

1. What is you favorite CD that you own? Mad Season by Matchbox Twenty.
   
2. What CD do you listen to all the way though without skipping any tracks? A ton of cds actually. And I listen to the whole cd over and over again.
   
3. What Musical artist would you like to meet? Hanson, Gwen Stefani, Fergie, Matchbox Twenty, and Gary Allan.
   
4. What is your favorite song? Complicated by Carolynn Dawn Johnson...I think.
   
5. What Musical artist do you have a crush on? Hanson, Gwen Stefani, Fergie, Rob Thomas, and Gary Allan.